I GOT IN

SO I AM BOUNCING OFF THE WALLS.
I GOT INTO THE TAFE COURSE FOR FINE ARTS!
And I am happy and relived and i want to laugh and cry all at the same time.
Because it feels right.
And now I have to find somewhere to stay which is goin to be a total bitch but I will find away to get out of this house cos if i don't get out I will go crazy (or at least crazier than I am already)
but i will get out!
Mum is putting a dampener on it of course saying that if centrelink doesn't say it qualifies for a full time course I am not allowed to do it!!!
God!
Anyway, the place is wonderful, its open and tall and has theses stairs and colourful and smells like paint and creativity, god i just want it sooo much!
So I will get out I have to. but I GOT IN!!!
Can you believe it, painting, drawing, sculpture, photography. Its a dream.

Just wanted to share my awesome news with peeps who would care.

EJ.

P.S. On a side note, does anyone want to do a drawing for me for xmas, Of my OC and Gabe from Spn.

P.S.S And just when you think the world is getting better, it kicks you in the ass, and its like it wants to make sure you know that happiness is fleeting. So my friend might be getting a flat and she said ages ago that depending on things that perhaps me and besso and matt could move in with her, turns out she is prob movin in with me ex. And i really shouldn't care or be jealous, I mean we have been broke up for God 3 years or something, and they are just friends, but it still feels like she picked him over me, and argh!

I'm goin to go watch Ghost Whisperer...or Criminal Minds, I could do with a Spencer hit.

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Okay People here is the deal.

Seeing I am lazy and have like 15000 messages (no joke, but that includes EVERYTHING) I am not going to reply to everyone who faved.
I simply cannot do that. It's a feat even beyond me.

So if you have faved my work in the last 6 to 12 months.
Thank you, Thank You, Thank You! It means the world to me and gives me a little buzz to know someone actually likes my work.
So thank you again. x a million to all of you.

If you have commented, I will take the time to reply and give a llama badge (If I haven't already) to you.

If you have watched me again a llama badge and a thank you will be coming your way.

Okay moving on! Quick Update.

In a weeks time I will be going for my Art course interview for art at tafe next year. It all goes well and I do get in. I want it soooo bad.

Nova is growing and getting into her toddler years of mischief. Just when you think she is going well and trained she pees on the dogs bed or the lounge or climbs the curtain or table and destroys flowers.
Everyone gets mad, and just like any mother I defend and protect her. Oops.
It is finally summer here, WHOOO! I love the heat and summer, only cos i can't stay warm otherwise. Bad circulation.

I have still been sleeping lots, though some days are better than others, the drugs seemed to have kicked in, dunno if I want to stay on them long term.
So I went and saw a knisiologist? (still can't spell) and she told me to get rid of anything electronic under my bed (electric blanks, cords, power boards etc) try to limit my time of the computer and mobile etc, while she cleaned my energies or whatever they do, and I have felt much better. Not a hundred percent, but I feel more wake for longer, and if I miss taking the tablets I can stay awake longer, than before.
It is just a long and tedious journey through different doctors and specialists and treatments.
And I hate it.

I would like to encourage everyone this year to do something for someone less fortunate at Christmas be them human or animal.
It can be as simple as holding the door open for someone who has a load of shopping or donating food to a shelter or volunteering.

I have already done mine. I send care packages/Christmas goodies to the Aussie troops fighting in the war. It is the most wonderful feeling to know that you will brighten someone else's perhaps otherwise bleak day.
And don't forget the animals!
If you do happen to do a random act of kindness. Let me know about it!

On a Happier note.
I would like to send Christmas cards to some of my loyal watchers.
I will say 10 places (It's not like 10 peeps will actually say they want cards but still its a round number.)
So comment in the next week if you would like a Xmas card from Australia.
I will be in contact with a few of you to get your address, so I can send you one anyway, for supporting me through the year.

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You know you need a life when:

1) You can relate anything to supernatural, from music on the radio (AC/DC or Asia) to dregs in the kitchen sink (OMG! ITS SHAPE SHIFTER SKIN!)

2) You start watching all your dvds again so you can compile your own Supernatural playlist. (Than make your ring tone 'smoke on the water')

3) You randomly burst out saying lines from the show, whether it is in context or not to the conversation you are having.

4) You find yourself daydreaming in the middle of class than when you get asked a question you are momentarily confused as to why you are studying said subject instead of researching monsters.

5) You start referring to yourself as Dean and your younger brother Sammy and scream Bitch and Jerk to each other.

6) When you can't sleep, so you start to go through all your old chick mags under your bed, which are gathering dust, and find pictures of Sam and Dean to add to your ever growing collection of 2699 images. (Which is way larger now) And you have to stop yourself screaming at your luck.

7) You spend more time rping a supernatural character (Anna) than having a real life.

8) You have watched so many eps and or read fics than told your mum that even now she ships dean/cas and comments that "Oh wow! yeah I can see it now!"

9) Still on the same track, you've read so many fics, the line between what you have read and seen is starting to blur and you can't remember if it was actually in the show.

10) You have become super possessive of your car radio/stereo, You're the driver you pick the music/radio station and the volume everyone has to deal with it and if they even think about touching it while your driving you pull the car up and chuck them out.

11) You have finally found out that there will be a SPN convention in Australia (finally) and you are saving your a$$ off and are desperately wanting/looking for a job, and are doing everything (Including maybe selling your soul to get tickets and only short of selling yourself...maybe) so when your at a job interview and they ask you why you tell them its to get to Sydney to see the SPN boys.

12) You have a gazillion fanfics half wrote and or beginning in your head but for some damn reason you can't get onto writing them!

13) You only look at cars to buy with decent boot size, so you can have a hidden boot, after all where else are you going to put all your guns, salt and holy water etc

14) You have finally found an Impala to buy $13 000, whooo! You could empty your savings account to buy it, but you mum is still putting her foot down, than you hear petrol prices are to reach $2 a litre you would never be able to run it!
So you are reduced to searching for a toy model Impala to try to fix the hole in you heart.

15) You look at little babies clothes and managed to find tiny jeans and check and mini leather Jackets!!!! (I have pictures, and mum was like you don't have kids!) All which would be suitable to dress you children so they will be demon hunting siblings
(or whoever's you steal)

16) Similar to the one above, if you don't have kids, you try to dress you brother.
"Hey tom look rings! *drags him over* NO! OH MY GOD LOOK LEATHER JACKETS/JEANS/BRACELETS/ETC, NO ELLY! STOP DRESSING ME UP AS THE WINCHESTERS!"

17) You have started a supernatural tool kit, Salt, holy water, stakes, lighters, torches, guns, petrol, silver, knifes, the list goes on as you think of extra things or watch the eps over AGAIN!

18) You treat yourself and download an ep (the man who would be king) only to regret it, because you cried the whole way through it. How could Dean and Cas break up! And both Cas and Dean's heartbroken faces.
Thank God no one was home Because they would have told you it is just a show and to get over it...again
*Grabs Cas in a tight hug, its okay baby, don't cry! Dean still loves you! Dean tell him you love him damn it, make him change his mind!*

19) The idea of Cas (maybe) dying makes you physically sick.

20) You've taken to attacking your bro every time he says Cas has gone dark side and Dean is going to have to kill him. Which BTW he has been saying since the beginning of the new season. Little shit! how does he know?!

21) You lay awake tossing and turning worrying about the outcome of the final (i haven't seen it don't tell me!) go through previous eps in your head either just worrying or thinking how things could have been different...(OMG! fanficing the angst on Dean's behalf!)

22) People from Supernatural are appearing in other shows. And you have a theory.
Peeps in SPN start of in Dark Angel, than move to Stargate/Criminal Minds/SPN, Castle, No Ordinary Family.
Nikkita, Bones, X-Files, (ever noticed season one of both spn and xfiles nearly follow the same things they are investigating? and Mark Sheppard that man is a genius though he scared the be-jessus out of me(My bro says he is "FREAKY AWESOME!!!" and aspires to be that great of an actor.)

23) You spend half an hour looking at the price of Rock Salt 1 cent per 10grams BARGAIN!

24) You own two copies of the dvds *guilty*

25) You have started hyperventilating about season 7, it is far more important than your own birthday. You have kinda been making yourself sick thinking about it.

26) You have only just finished watching season 6 because you have spend months in denial and you screamed and cried and threw stuff at the tv becasue the final was heart breaking. The whole time you mother is telling you to shut up and not to be so loud.

27) You cannot listen to 'Carry On my Wayward Sons' without crying.

28) You make up new words/terms with your bro, while your washing up, to describe the relationship dean and Cas that will unfold in S7 (De-angst-iel, anyone?)

29) You take over writing your bro's high school presidential speech and get him to add in random acts of kindness (taking over the world!!!) (BTW he got Vice president.)

30) You give yourself second degree burns while making pudding, because you break into hysterics at the thought of PUDDING! and Dean and his "Snack pack"

And I will add more as i find out what else i have been doing ^^

Oh and i once read this fic and i can't remember where i read it, but the thing i remember out of it was that cas asked dean to carve the sigil in his chest and dean made sam look away and he kissed/bit cas shoulder to distract him. it was so painfully beautiful! if anyone knows of the fic im talking about, please PLEASE point me in the right direction to find it again, cos it was fantastic!