Happy New Year, Oh forget it-UPDATE

~WARNING~
Just so you know, before processedin. This could be angsty.
And If you haven't read this journal before continue on after this part to read happier things.

How do I put this delicately.
Yes I got in.
I was over the moon.
My parents said oh no wait a bit, before pressing the acceptance button.
I log in today, to
We're sorry, your position has been WITHDRAWN.

Yup that sums it.
Excuse me while i do something crazy, like jump of the nearest, bridge, cliff etc, etc!!!
FML.

Now you can carry on to happier things.

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First off, Happy New Year Everyone!
I wish you all the very best for the upcoming year.
It feels like a good one to me.
Even if we are all going to die at the end of it…
Which I totally didn't know about until my brother told me…
But until than, you basically have a whole year to make count.
I hope everyone had a relaxing and refreshing break over xmas and all got what they wanted.
By the way, people tell me if you got my cards!

((((So update on the tafe thing. If you missed it before I GOT IN!!! (NEVER MIND- SEE PREVIOUS PARAGRAPH)
This year I will be doing fine arts. So excited.
Even better, I have to move out of home, so I can get away from this poisonous household.
Yes, my parents are still fighting. Even worse now, seeing dad quit his job and is now only working part time. And as usual I am caught in the middle, but its ten times worse.
Awesome.
But if I move out,  I will have some freedom.
However I got to get there first.
As much as centrelink is on my arse, they will basically pay for the majority of my course, and possibly housing (If I can find any) seeing it is a full time course. What is really is stoping me is, every time I go to press that nice big SHINY acceptance button, my mother yells at me not to do it, in case centrelink turns around and says its not full time. If its not than I have to continue to look for work that does not exisit.
I think though she just doesn't want me to go. Like not even maritally, or maybe she doesn't even know it, but its like she is holding onto me cos she doesn't want to be stuck here at home with my brother and father on her own.
And who could blame her really.

I am freaking out that I wont be able to handle it, that my freakin' narcolepsy is going to stop me from doing it. But if I actually going to classes and with people again, and better yet, creative and like minded people.  (Did you know I cannot interact with people in the real world anymore. Or go into large crowds. I totally freak out.)
And because I will be doing something I love, it won't feel like work. Fingers crossed.
Downside, I have to leave my animals cos where ever I board I am guessing they wont allow at the very least cats, let alone chickens horses or a calf XD ))

Anyway, moving on, only somewhat though.
You may have noticed I have, like today, added some new photos. Yes, more will be coming. Slowly. When I get around to editing them.
Does anyone want to give me a crash course on RAW files when taking photos, basically all I know is that they are basically a digital negative and can make the editing process easier. But other than that I have not the slightest clue, and the guy who interviewed me for my course said I would need to know some basic stuff.

On the animal front, Nova is, well Nova.
Rebellious teenager. Not much more you can say.
Oh well, my step brother went away fro xmas, so we baby sitted his jack russell, creatively named Jack.
That did not go down to well.
There was a lot of hissing and spitting and running away, and crying. And that was from Jack.
For awhile we thought Nova might totally freak out, seeing she doesn't like anyone other than my family and Maddie.
Than she came out from hiding after Rodney left from dropping Jack. Well, she bristled and hissed and stalked and scratched and CHASED Jack.
Jack ended up being more scared of her than she was of him, Nova prowled the house like some panther, but radiated smugness, in every step.
Jack took to cowering behind our legs if she came into the room, and constantly had this look on his face, that you see the victims have in horror movies the "I know the physcio is in the house but I just don't know where, and he is going to jump out any minute with an axe" look. I don't think the dog slept for 4 days. Plus Nova took to hiding in boxes and jumping out at every time he came near her. It was hilarious.
Poor Maddie has been a bit worse for wear. She had to have several lumps cut out of her, just before xmas. The vet thought they may have been cancorus, but luckily they were just fatty tissue build up (apparently it happens to older female dogs) After *cough* 1,500 *cough, cough* dollars later and 50 stiches, ranging from her chest and legs to her lip. She is all better now, even if she has random bald shaved patches that will take months to get back to normal. XD

Baby Rain (for those of you who don't know is my pet calf) is growing (I know you asked about her Brian) though she isn't as big as some other weaner calves her size. She will be coming up two this year. WOW, time flies.
So I guess that she will be going to go with the bull soon, and that will start another round of worrying. Eeep!
You can walk up to her in the paddock and pat her, and I sometimes lay down with her in the shade when its hot. At the moment, she is in a paddock with a bunch of cows with new born calves so she is on baby sitting duty. XD So cute.

Next week, a group of my friends and I are heading off to Sydney ffor the day to see the Harry Potter Exbaditon. So excited. I am the only dork dressing up. Of course.
I can't help myself. And we are taking the train (very harry potter like) and I am planting my ass down in my robes and going to F-ing Hogwarts OKAY! And people can stare all they want because I am so totally awesome. or insane, it could go either way.

In saying that, I have not bought, my Supernatural convention tickets yet I know right, the shame. Well mum said, I am not allowed to go unless someone goes with me. And at this stage that is like no one
Apparently no one is as nuts about it, in my real life circle of friends, as my online ones. Like what is this?!
*Sigh* Oh well, I will just have to bug people until they say yes, and have a spare $800. (Which I totally have BTW, unless I buy that Macro lense I was looking at.) Mum says that the lense is a much better investment.
O_o AS IF! Okay it is…maybe…or Misha…lense or Misha…hmmm.
It really isn't even a contest.
Misha is going to win every time. It can't be helped.

So that is about it for now folks.

I am slowly getting back into writing. But It may not all be fan fiction.
I have a few, just writing pieces I want to get finished and put up here, as they are quite important,tome anyway.
All that angst, and darkness. Lol.
I got to start carrying a note pad around so I can jot ideas as they come around when I'm out and about.

Cheerio  Peeps!

E.J

P.S.
Would anyone like to draw a picture of my OC and Gabriel, it would be going with my fic Circles Within Circles which can be found here fav.me/d4jmits
Note me for more info if you are interested.

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NOTE:
I once read this fic and i can't remember where i read it, but the thing i remember out of it was that cas asked dean to carve the sigil in his chest and dean made sam look away and he kissed/bit cas shoulder to distract him. it was so painfully beautiful! if anyone knows of the fic im talking about, please PLEASE point me in the right direction to find it again, cos it was fantastic!
I may even be inclined to do you a drawing…or fic.

You know you need a life when:
(And I will add more as i find out what else i have been doing ^^ This is a WIP)

38) You endevor to read every single Spn fanfic on fan fiction.com until you find the above story.

37) You start squealing (or silently squealing, which just makes you look like you need to pee, really, REALLY, badly,) when the owner of your new favourite shop "Apparitions" has a photo of the Supernatural boys (Sam, Dean and Cas) on the wall behind the counter. You just suddenly blurt out (because you can't hold it anymore)That OMG YOU WATCH SUPERNATURAL TOO. YOU ARE SO AWESOME! To which they reply with, "Oh yes, it's a great show, we love it, and the boys are so hot."
(BTW this totally happened, it made my day and will continue to make my day every time I step into that shop)

36) You are sick of hearing people bashing and bitching on Gen.
Okay I didn't like Ruby but people that is a character and regardless of your personal feelings towards that, Gen is still a person and the mean things I have seen and read are out of line, Especially after they announcement that she was pregnant.
That is something to be happy about, it doesn't give you the right to ruin something so special with spiteful and horrid words.
You don't know her from a bar of soap.
So Keep, Your Opinions, To Yourself.
And as if Jared would marry someone who wasn't nice. Like Geez.
Besides, it's bad Karma, just know that now it is coming to bite you in the arse, 3 times as bad.

35) You are still mourning the loss of Cas  or are in denial (I don't think a lot of will get over that) and are fed up with the amount bashing on Misha etc etc (seriously I have heard some real mean things) But you wont give up the show. You are after all a true fan and will see it through to the end. Not that its ending. EVER.
And will defend Misha til the end against those mean people.

34) You are kinda pissed that there doesn't seem to be the same amount of up roar for the loss of Bobby as Cas. (And seeing I havn't seen it, I'm only guessing he isn't back yet)

33) You argue with your YOUNGER brother who is the favourite son. It is TOTALLY Sam. (Even mum agrees)

32) You have taken to stealing salt packets from Macca's,  and various other establishments, instead of sugar and keep them close at hand in case you need to use them.

31) You have come to associate flicking lights with demons. You either run away or pull your stolen salt from your pocket.

30) You give yourself second degree burns while making pudding, because you break into hysterics at the thought of PUDDING! and Dean and his "Snack pack"
Admit who could eat their xmas pudding with a straight face? I didn't.

29) You take over writing your bro's high school presidential speech and get him to add in random acts of kindness (taking over the world!!!) (BTW he got Vice president.)

28) You make up new words/terms with your bro, while your washing up, to describe the relationship dean and Cas that will unfold in S7 (De-angst-iel, anyone?)

27) You cannot listen to 'Carry On my Wayward Sons' without crying.

26) You have only just finished watching season 6 because you have spend months in denial and you screamed and cried and threw stuff at the tv becasue the final was heart breaking. The whole time you mother is telling you to shut up and not to be so loud.

25) You have started hyperventilating about season 7, it is far more important than your own birthday. You have kinda been making yourself sick thinking about it.

24) You own two copies of the dvds *guilty*

23) You spend half an hour looking at the price of Rock Salt 1 cent per 10grams BARGAIN!

22) People from Supernatural are appearing in other shows. And you have a theory.
Peeps in SPN start of in Dark Angel, than move to Stargate/Criminal Minds/SPN, Ghost Whisperer (I must say seeing Yellow eyes as Charlie and Lucifer in it was hilarious I could not stop laughing) Castle, No Ordinary Family.
Nikkita, Bones, X-Files, (ever noticed season one of both spn and xfiles nearly follow the same things they are investigating? and Mark Sheppard that man is a genius though he scared the be-jessus out of me (My bro says he is "FREAKIN AWESOME!!!" and aspires to be that great of an actor.)

21) You lay awake tossing and turning worrying about the outcome of the final (i haven't seen it don't tell me!) go through previous eps in your head either just worrying or thinking how things could have been different...(OMG! fanficing the angst on Dean's behalf!)

20) You've taken to attacking your bro every time he says Cas has gone dark side and Dean is going to have to kill him. Which BTW he has been saying since the beginning of the new season. Little shit! how does he know?!

19) The idea of Cas (maybe) dying makes you physically sick.

18) You treat yourself and download an ep (the man who would be king) only to regret it, because you cried the whole way through it. How could Dean and Cas break up! And both Cas and Dean's heartbroken faces.
Thank God no one was home Because they would have told you it is just a show and to get over it...again
*Grabs Cas in a tight hug, its okay baby, don't cry! Dean still loves you! Dean tell him you love him damn it, make him change his mind!*

17) You have started a supernatural tool kit, Salt, holy water, stakes, lighters, torches, guns, petrol, silver, knifes, the list goes on as you think of extra things or watch the eps over AGAIN!

16) Similar to the one above, if you don't have kids, you try to dress you brother.
"Hey tom look rings! *drags him over* NO! OH MY GOD LOOK LEATHER JACKETS/JEANS/BRACELETS/ETC, NO ELLY! STOP DRESSING ME UP AS THE WINCHESTERS!"

15) You look at little babies clothes and managed to find tiny jeans and check and mini leather Jackets!!!! (I have pictures, and mum was like you don't have kids!) All which would be suitable to dress you children so they will be demon hunting siblings
(or whoever's you steal)

14) You have finally found an Impala to buy $13 000, whooo! You could empty your savings account to buy it, but you mum is still putting her foot down, than you hear petrol prices are to reach $2 a litre you would never be able to run it!
So you are reduced to searching for a toy model Impala to try to fix the hole in you heart.

13) You only look at cars to buy with decent boot size, so you can have a hidden boot, after all where else are you going to put all your guns, salt and holy water etc

12) You have a gazillion fanfics half wrote and or beginning in your head but for some damn reason you can't get onto writing them!

11) You have finally found out that there will be a SPN convention in Australia (finally) and you are saving your a$$ off and are desperately wanting/looking for a job, and are doing everything (Including maybe selling your soul to get tickets and only short of selling yourself...maybe) so when your at a job interview and they ask you why you tell them its to get to Sydney to see the SPN boys.

10) You have become super possessive of your car radio/stereo, You're the driver you pick the music/radio station and the volume everyone has to deal with it and if they even think about touching it while your driving you pull the car up and chuck them out.

9) Still on the same track, you've read so many fics, the line between what you have read and seen is starting to blur and you can't remember if it was actually in the show.

8) You have watched so many eps and or read fics than told your mum that even now she ships dean/cas and comments that "Oh wow! yeah I can see it now!"

7) You spend more time rping a supernatural character (Anna) than having a real life.

6) When you can't sleep, so you start to go through all your old chick mags under your bed, which are gathering dust, and find pictures of Sam and Dean to add to your ever growing collection of 2699 images. (Which is way larger now) And you have to stop yourself screaming at your luck.

5) You start referring to yourself as Dean and your younger brother Sammy and scream Bitch and Jerk to each other.

4) You find yourself daydreaming in the middle of class than when you get asked a question you are momentarily confused as to why you are studying said subject instead of researching monsters.

3) You randomly burst out saying lines from the show, whether it is in context or not to the conversation you are having.

2) You start watching all your dvds again so you can compile your own Supernatural playlist. (Than make your ring tone 'smoke on the water')

1) You can relate anything to supernatural, from music on the radio (AC/DC or Asia) to dregs in the kitchen sink (OMG! ITS SHAPE SHIFTER SKIN!)